No place like home, fourth base, slide through for a play just to feel more safe. Getting higher by the day, reminds you of the divorce rate. Fast forward to a service in a church, a funeral or a court date. What you want is what you feel farthest from, but you feel you deserve it, huh? I don't feel like my nerves is numb, impervious like I just started this song. We just waiting on a break through but it ain't occurred to us to keep waiting. Oh I'm feeling like I'm running out of time, running out of time. What time is it? No time like the present. While my guilt could never be outmatched by another emotion triggered by reminders of you, anger likes to sneak in from the sidelines Anger like none I have ever felt, targeted less at you than at the unanswerable questions you left me with.Yikes. You must laugh when you see me in your mind's eye, because I feel your mockery through the one-sided bond between us I created to cope with your absence. I know you'll never feel my pain oozing from this letter, because you'll never again be within arm's reach to read it. You would rather we had never known one another, so that you never had to witness my kind of intolerable disgrace of a meat sack.įor I was so insufferably pathetic that I pushed you away. I know you want to erase any and every trace of the blotch I made on your up-and-up life. Now, no matter how much I change, grow, and morph into the strength I didn't know I always had, it will never be truly worth it. I'm sorry for being the coward that I was when it mattered. Guilt bares it's ever growing canines if I so much as glimpse you in my mind's eye, let alone poke at the memories that I still cherish. Though I don't deserve the mercy, I wish you had done it sooner.
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